Semi-?

So today was a pretty long day at school...
When I got back I had a small epiphany and realized what might have initiated all this was really a "lie". A letter based on false short term thoughts, the results of a distant summer relationship strained further by total isolation while on vacation and her and my stress at school... We talked for a while then headed out to Starbucks for free drinks.
Afterwards I pretty much hung out with Kenna for the rest of the day - which I definitely didn't suspect to do, but I have to admit, it was fun as always (fun like it was before) just without the hugs and holding hands and a less consistent smile on my face...
I had a fun time never the less, but at one point during the night I had a harsh reminder of our situation - a picture frame, now empty, with what used to be a picture of us - and also a moment that reminded me of her total freedom to see other guys now. That was probably the low of the night although just spending time with her can make me happy...
I started to think and review the night on the way back from dropping her off...
Basically the only conclusion I could come up with was that waiting for her is something I can do, and it is really only a question of how long I can do that... I know that waiting for her now is no different than if I decided to never see her again. I would not be over her and would have no interest in dating other girls so there's no difference there and that's really the only one that matters in a situation like this. However, the time I let my self wait could vary greatly... Either I spend 1/2 the time I would getting over her waiting, and the other half quickly getting over it, waiting an equivalent time, or simply wait as long as I feel I feasibly can (until I move away from Terre Haute in which case I would declare myself a secret stalker).
I really don't know what to do, but tonight, and for now, I think I could wait quite a while...
I can only pray and sleep tonight... Until tomorrow... Adios