Thought provoking...
Interesting what 10 days can do to me...
Doesn't seem like 10 days at all, more like a month, maybe that's more in respect to my maturity level.. I guess with the length of each failed relationship I gain the same amount of maturity afterwards... But you would only truly see that if I let you get inside my head...
Not to dwell on audra (cuz I'm definitely not) but she did say two things to me in the last week that made me think...
One of them was her saying that she was sorry for her actions near and at the end of our relationship... And it just made me feel better to know I wasn't a total waste of time like I had begun to think I was... So I guess it made me realize that, to an extent, there can be a good friendship after a relationship (not so well proved by my ex)...
The other thing she said was that I was "marriage material" which I totally agree with, I mean there is probably nothing more important to me right now (besides family) than finding the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with... Although, I did think for a little bit, that maybe I'm not great "marriage material" - but who am I to judge after dating so few people? I've developed my own personal interpretation of what love is over the last year and I hope it keeps me on the right track towards happiness...
Now that I look back on the last 10 days, there is really only one other thing, or should I say person, that's been running through my mind... (BTW, I should count 11 days, which technically voids my last post, but considering my level of intoxication that night, I suppose it was somewhat understandable where I was coming from when I wrote it, such is the hindsight in many of my posts...) Anyways... I'll leave most of you in the dark on this one... Though, I will say, I hadn't read this persons profile until tonight... And I definitely liked it before I reached the bottom.... (even if they are only 50% true :-p - and I liked it even more after I read the bottom)
;-)
Edit: Then again, this could be me jumping the gun - again.... :-/
Doesn't seem like 10 days at all, more like a month, maybe that's more in respect to my maturity level.. I guess with the length of each failed relationship I gain the same amount of maturity afterwards... But you would only truly see that if I let you get inside my head...
Not to dwell on audra (cuz I'm definitely not) but she did say two things to me in the last week that made me think...
One of them was her saying that she was sorry for her actions near and at the end of our relationship... And it just made me feel better to know I wasn't a total waste of time like I had begun to think I was... So I guess it made me realize that, to an extent, there can be a good friendship after a relationship (not so well proved by my ex)...
The other thing she said was that I was "marriage material" which I totally agree with, I mean there is probably nothing more important to me right now (besides family) than finding the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with... Although, I did think for a little bit, that maybe I'm not great "marriage material" - but who am I to judge after dating so few people? I've developed my own personal interpretation of what love is over the last year and I hope it keeps me on the right track towards happiness...
Now that I look back on the last 10 days, there is really only one other thing, or should I say person, that's been running through my mind... (BTW, I should count 11 days, which technically voids my last post, but considering my level of intoxication that night, I suppose it was somewhat understandable where I was coming from when I wrote it, such is the hindsight in many of my posts...) Anyways... I'll leave most of you in the dark on this one... Though, I will say, I hadn't read this persons profile until tonight... And I definitely liked it before I reached the bottom.... (even if they are only 50% true :-p - and I liked it even more after I read the bottom)
;-)
Edit: Then again, this could be me jumping the gun - again.... :-/
posted by Eric at
3/28/2006 08:51:00 PM
1 Comments:
hey schue lets just run away to Vegas and get married - get it over with for the both of us - i think i could deal with ya for the rest of my life -hehe- aww i love ya schue! chin up!
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