I was right....

I told you all I'd lose...
1 more date (2 total, if you count spending 5 days together through 2 different occasions) and they are going into a serious relationship and not her and I...
I didn't even get the chance to fix my mistakes...
Remind any of you of my last serious relationship? Yeah it reminds me too well and bring back too many bad memories... I'm not sobbing over her, but bringing back those memories might make me do that...
It took me a good two minutes just to delete all her text messages from the past month... Then got rid of movie ticket stubs, so I think that's everything... Oh almost forgot the pictures on my phone... Done....
Still keeping the phone number.... Oh again I forgot, need to take her off speed dial... Done...
Audra and I will be friends later, I'm pretty sure... The time we had together was always fun, and I had thoughts running through my head before that we could be just be really good friends rather than hooked up... I still need to get some music CDs from her...

In the end:
Sure I get to date around again now, and don't have to worry any more, have free weekend, don't have to spend so much money on gas and food...
But in the end, the negatives far outweigh the positives... This was my first time really giving it my all, after being over my ex, and wanting this to work out, thinking everything was great, and having it fall right in front of my face... I need a girl in my life... Ever since my ex, when I'm not around a girl or have a girlfriend (which hasn't been often) I just have this horrible bland look on my face, and I become very apathetic... It's just my general depression that I'm back too... Nothing about my ex, or Audra... Just generally depressed...
Such is my life...

I think I'll just sit around on my ass all day... Maybe break something, cut down another tree, or just drive around all day for no reason...
:-/