Vacation Day 3 & 4

So yeah, the drive to Boston was much less enjoyable than the drive to Virginia... Even though it was much more scenic and shorter, it wasn't as fun. Probably because soon after arriving in Boston I found myself with an upset stomach which soon made itself clear that I had food poisoning :-/ Suck ass...
Well I spent the last 24+ hours trying to recover... The nausea is gone for the most part, now trying to fight off being tired and just being blah...
I'm pretty pissed off that the two prime days I'll be in Boston have just been pissed away by me being sick... Cuz now for Dave and I to have lots of fun will have to involve him taking time off work...
I'm still debating if I want to try snowboarding... I still need to find some more appropriate equipment to do that or skiing...
Grrrr... well I really hope I start feeling better soon...
I wish Auddy was here to make me feel all better :)
I miss her a lot and hope I get to see her first thing when I get back to the Haute...

Vacation Day 2

My dad took the car back, said he didn't like the manual gear box (and the e-gear sucks if you read up on it). I noticed that the shifts were pretty rough when I got a ride in it, and I could see how that, and the gated shifter would get pretty annoying, pretty quick... I'm sure the 'awe factor' didn't help either, he was always complaining that you could never park it anywhere for fear that a jealous (rather than an admirious person) would ding or scratch it pretty badly just cuz, as he put it, 'don't have one'... It was nice that he kept it long enough for me to get my first ever ride in one though...
Does this mean if you know its ok to talk about it? Do you still want to get me in trouble? I hope not...
Anyways, vacation day 2, woke up at like 11, got free lunch at Uno's Chicago pizzeria with Amanda. The crust on it was sooooooo good, I could have just eaten that for a meal! Talked to Auddy for a bit before Aunt Mary got back home, that was one of the highlights. Aunt Mary and I went Verizon and swapped her phone out for a Razr... buttons are funkier than Cingular, but I guess that just shows that Verizon is jank haha. Then I got a free dinner at some American Dinner place... Can't recall the exact name... I forgot my wallet and my ID, but Aunt Mary was nice though to 'vouch' for my beer haha. Then picked up the Breaking Benjamin and Snow Patrol CDs at Best Buy.... yeah I'm addicted (thanks Audra! :) Talked to Auddy while at Best Buy, another highlight. Then chilled online for the night... Shouldn't have been talking to the ex, brings back memories of the things I did wrong, and I know I've fixed them, its just still emotionally torn within me, definitely not a 'I'm not over her' problem much more of a 'bad memories' problem. I know that might seem like a fine line to some, but I know where I stand, because I know how I feel about Audra, and that tells the truth without hesitation!
Well cuz I talked to the ex when I shouldn't have, I wasn't too happy, but Audra called me in like less than 2 minutes of my text message to her (while she was working by the way), and she helped, she helped a lot.... More than I could ask of anyone else... That is just totally amazing to me, not only how quickly she called for me, but how much she helped me in the whole minute or two we were on the phone... I might say it a lot, but it means the world to me that she did that in a time of need... That was the biggest highlight of the night :)
She's right, I don't have anything to worry about... All I have to stress over now is not getting to see her for the next week...
Well I'm drained, and I have to get up early and drive the INSANELY complicated and cool coastal 8 hr trip... I'm so going to get lost.... well at least it will be in a cool place of the US... or I'll get shot haha!
Wish me luck! I <3 U Auddy!

Vacation Day 1

So I got a late start driving to Virginia this morning... Catching up with mom and dad, and my mom clinging didn't help :-p
I think I got out of there around 11:30, and a TBR and gas stop later, I was in Virginia by 8:30... Aunt Mary said I made damn good time... Yeah 600 miles... Thats 11+ hrs in google time, but I made it in 9, without a radar detector, and with the thickest stink of bacon I've ever smelled before, all the way through Ohio... It was like STDs on my roommate... they were everywhere (yeah I know somewhere I hear Derek punching himself below the belt for me, what can I say, its really late and I'm getting slap happy, maybe a little giddy haha)
So, it was a fun drive... I didn't fall asleep, not even close, only thing that 'might' count is the second where I was trying to find a CD, and the pavement was uneven and it barely pulled my car off onto the shoulder. Auddy helped 'keep me awake' and by that I mean, make the drive fun... And now she's got me addicted to breaking benjamin and snow patrol, what's next?
I hope to get my auddyfix again soon... For once I know that coming home from this vacation will be a thing to smile about, cuz I'll get to see her again :-D
Time for bed!

Is it possible to be happier than happiest?

Yup, I'm living breathing proof :)
So now Auddy has gotten me addicted to Breaking Benjamin...
My dad got another car... I'll refrain from telling what exactly except for those few who actually give a damn and already know about the other one.... I secretly want to kill him and take his cars, kidding!
I had another great night with Auddy... I'm definitely coming home early to be with her a few more days before school starts back up... Right now our relationship is "officially dating" being that its not really official until I come back, cuz she doesn't want to start something right before I run away for a week... U
nderstandable, I suppose, although I'm already ancy enough that I'll be like "look at my girl!" to all my family I'll be seeing on the way to Boston... I'll have refrain until further notice I suppose! Waiting for her is worth it ;)
I'd like to write more, but I should really get to bed so I can get some sleep before my 10 hr drive to Virginia...
To lie here under you,
Is all that I could ever do,
To lie here under you is all,
To lie here under you is all that i could ever do,
I miss Auddy!

Happiest :)

Finals were hell, two in one day, busy as you can imagine...
Its all over, and to top it off, I got to spend 3 wonderful hours with Auddy...
It may not sound like much time at all, but it still made me really really really happy....
What else can I say?
I would like nothing else more than to be able to spend my entire break with her....
It would be 10 days in complete bliss...
I've made so many other people angry and mad because i've jumped into another relationship...
But I know deep inside, that it's worth the struggle to have her by my side...
I hope she feels the same way.....
Druken Schue signing off!

I worry too much

I know I'm happy, but I'm still worried that the rug could get pulled out from underneath my feet at any moment...
Perhaps I think too much... Especially when its finals week and I should be in bed...
I really hope that my best is good enough for her and that I can stop worrying if I'll get to see her again...
Its all out of my control now and all there is left to do is wait for the answer I guess...

I'm fat, I need to get on a diet, that being stop eating so many bad foods every day diet and go to the gym 4 times a week diet... Yeah I need to do that...

I wish it was Tuesday, finals would be over, break will have started, and most important of all, I get to see Audra again.. I'll just have to hope for the best with my finals and with Audra.

I like time zones, they are my friend!

So yeah, I love the time zone change from IN to IL, and I will be so pissed if they take it away permanently... Cuz I can leave IN and get to IL in 0 to 10 minutes... and when I drive back... Its still only really an hour drive... its a really skewed perspective, but its the way I look at it and and it lets me do really crazy stuff like driving to IL at the spur of the moment to go see Auddy, even if its only for a few hours... Especially when I would have been bored off my ass other wise!
Well tonight was another great 'date' (I sometimes wonder if walmart runs turn dates into just outings or something haha), we had some good mexican food and then ran to The Walmart to pick up random stuff in the now 5 degree weather... Then just chilled back at her house... It was lots of fun, I never expect anything else at this point :)
I wish she didn't have to go work 3rd shift all the time, but hopefully I'll get to see her a lot on Tuesday after I'm DONE WITH FINALS!
So this kind of a short post... but what can you expect when you're simply happy with the way things are going in your life...
Happy :)

Now I'm paranoid...

So yeah, I totally admit I'm over reacting and that I'm totally paranoid...
But I've got good reason, I don't want to lose something that has some much promise...
Its hard for me to believe at times how well and how fast the last two weeks have gone, and how much I've changed since I started talking to Audra again. I guess that's just how much she's change me for the better, and why now I'm getting so paranoid that she's paranoid about my past lol...
My desktop is laying in pieces, my car needs a wash, I should be going skiing and in Boston soon, but none of that matters as much now that I've found her.
All the girls that I was talking to before we started talking again, no longer do I see the same possibility of dating them... not to say I don't care about them, more to say that Auddy takes priority by a long shot...
I wish she could she could read my mind and know what goes on in my head now that we are dating...
Maybe my paranoia, is derived from my fear of getting my heart broken again...
She is flawless... I can only hope she thinks the same of me...
I miss her...

Happy-er-er

Its been a while since I've felt like this, in more than one way, for more than one reason... :-D

Happy-er

So yeah, even though school has never sucked this much since sophomore year, I'm still in a happier mood... I think mostly its because the more I forget, the more sane I become...
And that's really all I need to say about that, and I want to keep it that way.
Updates on my life over the past few weeks...
Accepted my job to work for Cummins Inc. in Columbus IN! I've had this offer on my table for about 5 months now and just got around to saying yes... Yay, I get to stay in Indiana, mooch off my parents from time to time, hang out with Indiana friends, work with my C-Bus buddies again, and make a crap ton of money :-D
My desktop is still in pieces, just found out I have two dead hard drives.... shit shit shit... probably won't get them back in time for my trip out to Boston to see my bro... almost makes me want to reconsider driving all that way when there are other people I'd love to see and it would be a lot cheaper too! We'll see...
Going to Boston to visit my bro for spring break #1, stopping at home, then UPenn to visit my cousin Allison for a day, then off to Boston, then back just in time for school again... That's the plan right now, but like I said, it might change...
Umm... Oh yeah, Pike Formal was funnzies, but I must say I took a lot of shit that night from a certain someone ;)
Wow... it just took me 20 minutes to remember where and what the hell I was doing last weekend... That's really sad... So um yeah as far as I can remember, I went to the bars with Batta Man and saw Rich Hardesty at the Balley. It was kick ass! I got completely hammered, randomly met a girl via Eddy that I had already met two years before, just didn't' realize it! Too bad she has a boyfriend of three years, she's really cool, even nice enough to drive my drunk ass home! Then after I got home I gave a good friend a 10 minute drunken phone call, of which I don't remember shit! Apparently, it was pretty bad, in more than one way lol! Saturday and Sunday were both mellow days as far as I can remember... With the exception of my first muscle spasim Saturday I think... that hurt like a fucking bitch at 8 am... I never want that to happen again!
Well this post is way too long, and deep inside I know what no one really cares about the crap I do, so I'll quit it haha...
I've got 6 projects to do in the next 5 days of class, its gonna be another crappy week... then three finals on Monday and Tuesday and I'm HOME FREE BITCHES!!!!!! 10 days!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, time for me to get to work on my projects until the 2am IHOP run with my brother :)