Now I'm paranoid...

So yeah, I totally admit I'm over reacting and that I'm totally paranoid...
But I've got good reason, I don't want to lose something that has some much promise...
Its hard for me to believe at times how well and how fast the last two weeks have gone, and how much I've changed since I started talking to Audra again. I guess that's just how much she's change me for the better, and why now I'm getting so paranoid that she's paranoid about my past lol...
My desktop is laying in pieces, my car needs a wash, I should be going skiing and in Boston soon, but none of that matters as much now that I've found her.
All the girls that I was talking to before we started talking again, no longer do I see the same possibility of dating them... not to say I don't care about them, more to say that Auddy takes priority by a long shot...
I wish she could she could read my mind and know what goes on in my head now that we are dating...
Maybe my paranoia, is derived from my fear of getting my heart broken again...
She is flawless... I can only hope she thinks the same of me...
I miss her...