Timing is a bitch...

That's an underlining fact of almost everything... most recently exacerbated by the chelsea dilemma... but no more need to worry about that... I've wasted too much time thinking how things would have been different, not always if something I did wrong could have been fixed, but if timing wasn't a bitch... I told myself a while ago that if I had found a girl like her a year later, everything would have been perfect... but anyways that's not what I'm really wanting to talk about...
Well since chelsea never gave me real closure and everything she has done since has made my life a wreck will soon be over, because I'm finally giving myself closure... Basically I'm going to sit down one day soon and write what will probably be my last meaningful email to her... It will explain how I feel about the last almost 6 months and why I'm going to do what I've got planned next... I know its the final step in my real recovery, well really damn close... The rest will come with a little more time, but once I finally lift this off my heart myself things will get better...
I guess I can make that a new year's resolution... to be able to move on like she has about this, like a bump in the road... I don't like the idea of that, but its clear I have to, or else I know I wouldn't make it to thirty before I ended up in the newspaper, if you catch my drift...
Well, Christmas this year lead to a pretty awesome haul, the only downside to it was that my desktop broke afterwards, and I've decided to give it a little upgrade before I blow a bunch of money on a totally new one... so if I had known that a little bit earlier maybe some of that could have been in under the tree instead of out of my wallet... Oh well, timing is a bitch...
Lan over break was sweet... I wish we could do that more often but cuz rose is on quarters, it doesn't line up well for everyone... Oh well, timing is a bitch....
Also my computer shat itself during the Lan and I didn't get to play a single game... Oh well, timing is a bitch...
I bought two games right before the Lan, I didn't get to play either, and later found out one of them was defective when I tried to install it on my laptop the next night, at 10 o'clock, right after everything closed... Oh well, timing is a bitch...
Damn I've got a good theme going on here! Just a few more :)
I should have made this post a few days ago, and I should have gone to bed two hours ago, and I have to leave tomorrow for school so I can get my homework done... Oh well, timing is a bitch!
Sitting here, I randomly contemplated if I'll still need some kind of therapy, or if time will really heal my mental and emotional "disorder"... I really don't know, and that kind of scares me...
Anyways... Time for bed I suppose... I've got a lot to do tomorrow before I can leave for school... Then after that I've got a lot of homework to do... fun fun...
Hope you all had a great Christmas and wish you all a happy new year!