Very Very Very...
Depressed...
I thought time away from her would help....
That cutting off all communication would do something to take away the pain...
But every day it gets worse and worse...
Just the shear act of having to send her a message on aim to get some stuff back made my hands tremble...
My heart is racing, my stomach upset, my eyes filled with tears, it will never get better...
Every moment that passes me by pushes me further into depression...
Everything about me directs me to only one conclusion, and that is that my life is over...
Anything else is only 2nd best, and to settle for 2nd best for the one thing I care most about is something I won't stand for...
I'd be long dead by now if it wasn't for the same morals keeping me alive that also tear my life apart...
I hate my life...
I have nothing left to live for...
People like me don't deserve to live...
I thought time away from her would help....
That cutting off all communication would do something to take away the pain...
But every day it gets worse and worse...
Just the shear act of having to send her a message on aim to get some stuff back made my hands tremble...
My heart is racing, my stomach upset, my eyes filled with tears, it will never get better...
Every moment that passes me by pushes me further into depression...
Everything about me directs me to only one conclusion, and that is that my life is over...
Anything else is only 2nd best, and to settle for 2nd best for the one thing I care most about is something I won't stand for...
I'd be long dead by now if it wasn't for the same morals keeping me alive that also tear my life apart...
I hate my life...
I have nothing left to live for...
People like me don't deserve to live...
posted by Eric at
11/29/2005 04:47:00 PM
4 Comments:
Everything happens for a reason hunny. You are just going to have to realize this. The Lord has bigger better plans for you. You may not think so right now, but I promise God knows what he is doing And he is in control. You should turn to him first instead of your blog. I'll be praying for you.
"Find a bible that is falling apart, and you're sure to find a person who's not"
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Anonymous, at 11:20 PM
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Eric, at 12:16 AM
Hunnie ur a great guy and u dont deserve what u have gone through and now your only putting yourself through it harder. Get your head up and look on with determination. U have many people who care about u and that will do anything to help you out so try to think more of them than spending your time thinking of those who dont. I love you and im here if you need me no matter what.
Nikki
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Anonymous, at 6:01 PM
Eric,
I'm sorry to see you're still struggling so much with your and Chelsea's breakup. I'm sure I'm one of the last people you want to hear from right now, but I've been through this and I just want you to know that someday, somehow it will get better. I had a 2 year and a 3 and 1/2 year relationship end, and both times i thought my life was over, but slowly (very slowly) it got better. I know you want to feel better now and you can't, but I hope I can give you at least a little hope that its coming. You will be happy again. To be honest, I really didnt like you when you were with her. I thought you were not very nice to her and took her for granted. But I truly believe people can change and I think if you see now that you messed up with her, you won't ever let it happen again with anyone else. I know none of this is what you want to hear, but its true. Please, if you really feel like this, get some help. Most colleges have free counseling services, maybe you could check that out. Sorry if all this upsets you more, I just needed to try to help. Goodluck with everything.
Emily
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