I hate free time...

I think free time is the last thing I needed...
At least when I'm at school I don't have the time of day to dwell on anything too long...
No time to sit down and absorb the pointless life I'm living... But here I am... with a severe abundance of free time, and this is the kind of crap that results...
Odd isn't it? How someone like me, so set to go into the field of engineering, so determined to live a rich and respected life, but yet never so undermineded to think that I don't like what I'm doing with my life...
Rose-Hulman has swallowed me whole, and after 55 more weeks of pain, will spit me out, and I think when it does, I won't find myself on the map of where I want to be in life.
I seriously wish I could disappear to Philmont for a year or two...
There is only one thing I ever wanted in life and day by day I think more and more that I'll never have it. Without it, I seriously question the very point of my existence...
I've been staring at my desk for the past hour... My life is meaningless...
I'm falling asleep in my chair.... I'll post more tomorrow in my infinite amount of free time and boredom... g'night