What is wrong with me?

I've come to this odd point right now where I feel like I'm just not normal...
I can't explain it... It is almost like I feel I just need to be completely alone... Out in the middle of Philmont or something where nothing can bother me and there is nothing to think about...
I'm so confused as to who I am and what the hell I'm doing with my life...
I'm starting to think that I just need to be by myself for a long time... Stop waiting for that phone call, stop waiting to drive somewhere, stop waiting to see someone, just @%$@ stop waiting... I feel like life is passing me by again, and this time it isn't because I'm consumed in a loving relationship, its just passing me by... pointlessly.
Sometimes... I feel like I care too much for too many people... There really are only a handful of people I would drop whatever I'm doing for them... No matter how much crap I'd take, or the consequences I'd face, I would still do anything for them... But even with just a handful of people, I still feel like I've stretched myself too thin... And I really don't know what to do... Part of me wants to have the best damn time of my life with my brothers, another part of me wants to grow up so fast it isn't even funny... I even think it is ridiculous how much I sometimes hate the college life and long for the boring years that will follow...
Have I confused the crap out of you all yet?
Well now you kind of know how I feel...
- a very lost and confused - go team...