I <3 Chelsea's friends

That I do...
They "try" to help me, but because of my perception of how the relationship fell apart, and because of the types of comments they make, it only reinforces my thoughts which bring me down...
I sincerely hope that if you're a friend of chelsea and you don't go to rose hulman, that you seriously just stay out of my life. I don't want to hear it because you don't know. This blog doesn't tell hardly any of the story about me and my feelings...
I am happy that I went through the night basically fighting with cambrie without crying, but that doesn't mean it didn't make me feel like shit.
I can be depressed as long as I want... If this life of regret is what God thinks I deserve for my mistakes then so be it... I leave my life totally in his hands to do so what he wishes - no one can bring me out of this cycle besides him... people like cambrie certainly can't break this cycle - they only make old scars become open and deeper wounds...
Just to remind you, I keep this blog to keep those who care about my life informed as to my well being... If you don't care, don't post a comment. If it hurts you to read my blog, don't read it. If you think you need to talk to me, do so thru other means than comments. Reserve commenting for those small comments that are insightful and bright.
For those people that truly care about me and will bitch at me for another post like this, I'm sorry...
I hate how one person can make me feel like this....