Digging my last hole...

That's it...
I'm done...
I can't do it anymore... I hate to admit it, but Edmonson is right - the day has finally come when I don't want to live with the pain of her anymore... I have been completely replaced by a mother fucking texan of all things... what - the - fuck? I'll never be able to look her or her family face to face anymore. I'll never be able to talk to chelsea again because I hate living like this, I pretend it's ok, I pretend it will get better, but it never does. I'm sorry chelsea, I won't be there on your wedding day... I'll at least attempt to send you a card on your special and beautiful day...
Somehow...
I hope...
This will make at least one part of my life better... I'm not saying I'm not over her... I'm just saying that she makes me hurt all the time... So maybe one day I'll finally get over that, and we can finally become friends again... Probably won't be till after college... And by then she will probably be 1000 miles away...
But hey, thats life... it sucks then you die!
Well now I'm going to try and start my life anew... Try to have a good day downtown at Crackers Comedy Club... then probably drinking heavily tonight...
call the cell if you want to join me.