Reality sets in...

So...
I've known for a while that a good friendship with Chelsea isn't possible... Tonight helped to confirm that... I can not be a part of her life without prying at what we once "had"... Doing so only pisses her off and makes me miserable... and seeing her with another person so soon after our parting makes everything worse...
The only way we can continue on is with the occasional monthly or semi-monthly - "hi, hows it going, bye" conversations... That really sucks, but when it comes down to it, thats the truth... I will always have these memories, I will always have this regret, I will always remember the love that I lost...
So much to gain, so little left to lose...
Time to go distract myself with the distractions of Homecoming... and a massive drinking binge to waste away my troubles... Wake me up Sunday afternoon haha.
Go Team - I love ya!
in ppka,
-Schue