I'm PMSing...

Its raining out... gloomy overcast day... homework has become my life... and I let my emotions dictate my life again...
Yesterday was awesome... besides waking up way too late after the Cubs game the night before, it was awesome. Was productive in Challenge X, then ran over to pick up the GMC fire truck... I gave my hand a second chance to drive a stick (which I haven't really done in 6+ years - and on top of that it doesn't have a syncro so you have to match RPMs - FUN!), and it was awesome! I did quite well actually... Took it back to the house, turned on the sirens, did a victory lap, then it was off to Deming for the Deming Block party rush event where I did a victory lap around campus with the sirens going. Campus security didn't like that one too much! Then I got a bunch of food, brought the GMC back and did one more victory lap. Then I decided to be a nice guy and get Jeni some Ralley's fries and just chilled at the mall till she had to go home. She always does a good job cheering me up and gives good advice. Then went back to the house and did jack crap... that was probably the start of todays depression - hinting the title PMS because I have so many up and down days now... There isn't much to look forward too (well not as much as there used to) and that is really depressing.
*Sigh*... There is no longer a bright shining star waiting for me... No one that will be there whenever I damn well need them... I know my brothers here can do a lot, but that feeling of companionship and unconditional love is not replaceable... I may be trying to put my broken heart back together, but there will always be a void... Not having that something to look forward to is hard to deal with... especially on a day like this...
Well...
Back to homework...
yay...
go team...
durr...