Clouded Thoughts
Why clouded thoughts? Probably because I should have posted here 3 or more times in the past week, and now my crapy memory has failed me and my thoughts are scattered again... I'll try to keep it together so it makes sense.
So... basically I've been really busy getting back ready for school. The first two days are over and classes seem ok for now... but I know that will change soon enough.
Basically I've been enjoying Pike to the fullest, always talking with my brothers and getting a ton of advice about the Chelsea thing... I didn't buy most of it because most of it was "she's a b****, f*** her". I would never ever say those types of things to her, or behind her back to my friends simply because its not true. She will always be fondly remembered, that much I know. I just wish things could be normal between us... like it was back before we were dating... the un-awkward aim conversations where we can laugh all day long... I really truly hope that things can really be "normal" again. I don't want to lose her friendship - or at least what seems to be left of it.
However, I think I'm finally getting past all this... It's all like a Hollywood movie, and it seems to have happened to a lot of Pikes - She's the one that got away. Rather I'd say, with my low self esteem, She's the one I lost. Either way, there is nothing I can do. There are a lot of "fish" in the "ocean" and even though it will take me a long time to find someone just as special, maybe even sooner than I think... I consider myself so fortunate to have found someone so great so early... so maybe that can happen again... maybe not... I don't know. All I know is that I've been thinking A LOT less about all this since I've come back to the house... And I've been thinking a lot more about the qualities that I want in a girl... and it's nice to say that even though I've only dated 2 people in my entire life, I'm very sure what I want in a girl... Chelsea was great, so that filled in a lot of those blocks for me... and the problems that developed the break up are the final pieces to the puzzle to finding that absolutely perfect woman... The only real question that just popped into my head is that I still may yet never find that woman... *STOP* not going down that path so you can breathe a sigh of relief as I just saved you 15 minutes of your life.
Anyways, I can't wait for Fall Foam 2005! In about 24 hours it will be all over, but I'll make the best of it.
Also, I have some of the best friends in the whole world! My brothers support me of course! But people I never thought cared too much about me, like Erica (first date), Erica (Wash U), Noodle, and Jeni and probably a whole list of people I'm forgetting have been there so much for me to help me through this ordeal! Thank you guys so much for everything you've done for me, especially your time and and a open ear! *hugs*
GO TEAM!!!!!! hahaha
-until next time.....
So... basically I've been really busy getting back ready for school. The first two days are over and classes seem ok for now... but I know that will change soon enough.
Basically I've been enjoying Pike to the fullest, always talking with my brothers and getting a ton of advice about the Chelsea thing... I didn't buy most of it because most of it was "she's a b****, f*** her". I would never ever say those types of things to her, or behind her back to my friends simply because its not true. She will always be fondly remembered, that much I know. I just wish things could be normal between us... like it was back before we were dating... the un-awkward aim conversations where we can laugh all day long... I really truly hope that things can really be "normal" again. I don't want to lose her friendship - or at least what seems to be left of it.
However, I think I'm finally getting past all this... It's all like a Hollywood movie, and it seems to have happened to a lot of Pikes - She's the one that got away. Rather I'd say, with my low self esteem, She's the one I lost. Either way, there is nothing I can do. There are a lot of "fish" in the "ocean" and even though it will take me a long time to find someone just as special, maybe even sooner than I think... I consider myself so fortunate to have found someone so great so early... so maybe that can happen again... maybe not... I don't know. All I know is that I've been thinking A LOT less about all this since I've come back to the house... And I've been thinking a lot more about the qualities that I want in a girl... and it's nice to say that even though I've only dated 2 people in my entire life, I'm very sure what I want in a girl... Chelsea was great, so that filled in a lot of those blocks for me... and the problems that developed the break up are the final pieces to the puzzle to finding that absolutely perfect woman... The only real question that just popped into my head is that I still may yet never find that woman... *STOP* not going down that path so you can breathe a sigh of relief as I just saved you 15 minutes of your life.
Anyways, I can't wait for Fall Foam 2005! In about 24 hours it will be all over, but I'll make the best of it.
Also, I have some of the best friends in the whole world! My brothers support me of course! But people I never thought cared too much about me, like Erica (first date), Erica (Wash U), Noodle, and Jeni and probably a whole list of people I'm forgetting have been there so much for me to help me through this ordeal! Thank you guys so much for everything you've done for me, especially your time and and a open ear! *hugs*
GO TEAM!!!!!! hahaha
-until next time.....
posted by Eric at
9/03/2005 12:46:00 AM
5 Comments:
I just wanted to let u know that from what i have gotten to know u that you are a great guy. And u deserve the best. Good luck and just keep ur head up!
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Anonymous, at 9:41 AM
wtf, you're posting again. i didn't even have your blog bookmarked anymore, but apparently i'm a member of this one, and i noticed your "last updated" was like... yesterday.
foam 05 was good. for the first time, i did not drink, and i was thoroughly entertained. did you ever find the other black tanktop?
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pinano, at 1:58 PM
I know that you are still having a hard time with the Chelsea thing, but things will get better. Just try and stay positive, and you will find love again. i promise. you are such an amazing person, and any girl would be lucky to have you. i should have realized that 2 years ago. <3<3Erica
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Anonymous, at 12:35 AM
Oh my god i just realized that you brought back the GO TEAM! YAY! you are so flippin hilarious! god... its good to be talking to you again. i missed you hard core! <3Erica
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Anonymous, at 12:37 AM
Your the greatest guy i have ever met. You have a good head on your shoulders and you always know what to say. And your always there to listen. You do your best to make others happy and no matter what u can always put a smile on my face... Thanks for everything you have done without even knowing it. Keep your head strong and you will find a great girl who deserves you just as much as you deserve her!
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