Boredom ensues

*Sigh*
I hate depression...
But hey, at least I'm coming out of it...
I said some asshole-ish things to Chelsea that I shouldn't have said... I should have taken Edmonson's words with more sincerity... I have been significantly knocked down on her totempole of priorities... Which is fine, I think not having much communication is probably the worst of it now... and I think think about it way too much... But like I said I'm stopping that... I'm taking Eddy's advice to heart now... I will be faithful and true to her, there when she needs me, a good friend always and to put the past behind us and move on...
I suppose another part of my life that I'm having trouble dealing with is that I know that with my lifestyle at a school like Rose-Hulman, in a town like Terre Haute, there isn't many possibilities to find someone special, which probably led to why I've been so clingy and I guess I should say more hopeful about Chelsea's and I situation... Bottom line, I fucked it up, I fucked it up big time and she has every damn reason in the world to not give a damn about me...

Anyways, enough about that crap... I'm tired of sulking over Chelsea... Nothing good will ever come of it... I just wish I wasn't single, especially on a Friday night when I'm sitting on my ass... At least if I had someone special I could be cuddled up on the couch watching a movie, holding hands at the movies, or just going out and having a fun time...

I seriously thought about driving to Bloomington just so I know I'd have fun plans for the night... No calls to the cell as usual so odds are I should have just driven to Bloomington instead... Thats two weekends in a row I've done jack shit... Blah... Terre Haute night life blows monkeys.

durr... go team...