It has been one of those weeks…

Been a while, but I’ve had some stuff on my mind and some busy nights. Had a really bad “relapse” this week – as I like to call it. Woke up after a pretty vivid dream on Tuesday night, only to realize that it was just that… a dream. That in combination with what Cambrie did to my facebook wall just made it all that worse. I think I’m right – they are all against me. I mean I messed up a lot over the course of 2.25 years, but nothing was probably worse than the impression I left her, but more so, with her friends. I still don’t have closure… and it’s hard to keep that from bothering me. I could go on and on about this… But I would prefer not to… For all I know she actually cares enough to read this, and that would only push away and piss her off more. All I can hope for is that I’ll get to see her for Christmas…

Well besides my depression what else is up in my life? Ummm… watched 5 hours of Real World one night… worked 11 hours one day… fixed Rick’s (the technician/operator) computer, or at least did all I could because I didn’t find much wrong with it. Had some pretty boring days at work because Cummins Industrial Center (CIC) in Seymour doesn’t have the greatest support… so if I randomly don’t get emissions, I kind of have nothing to do for the day. Oh well…
Moving back to the haute this weekend… Everything but clothes, computer, and food is getting moved. Yes the bed is going too… I can live on an air mattress for a few days right? Working on the room as well… and when I’m not moving or working on the room I’ll be chilling with my brothers or getting drunk with Noodle and Jeni… Hopefully I’ll be a bit more cheery next week…